Waiting to see how long it's gonna be before I have a physical, mental, AND emotional break-down.
Expecting the worst.
Just SO SURE that happiness is NOT for me.
Wondering when is the next horrible thing coming MY way && will that next one be the ONE. The one to take it outta me.
All my AMBITION, LOVE && COMPASSION...
GONE...!!!!
I can barely shed a tear because I'm dried out.
I don't know fun any more, I don't know feelings any more, at least not the good ones.-
What I do know...What I DO know is...
HURT, PAIN, STRESS, AGGRAVATION, ANGER, NEGATIVE TEMPTATION, DRINKING && LET DOWNS...etc.
I can't do it any more, I'm scared of bad news && terrified of pain. What will I do...?...Is it ALL because of me...?...What am I not doing right...?...Am I not pushing hard enough or am I pushing TOO much...?...What's my destiny...?...(UUUUUUgggggHHHHH) I hate asking myself these questions but is this where it ends...?...
WITH NO ANSWERS...?
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